Hi guys,
Here's an update...
My flock still numbers two
I tried and thought long and hard and gosh darn it I love the little bugger so I'm 100% committed that this will be his forever home. He's been through too much and put up with way too much of my teenage stupidity. I think I just panicked because of money stress (Its really, really hard for me to find work with a disability...I mean, legally they can't discriminate---but at best I whine and raise hell at Ministere de normes de travail and they can force the employer to take me. But really? Does anyone really want a job where they will be forever 'that #*$(% who forced us to take them' and you know the boss will be always up my butt and *looking* for reasons to fire me

) and because I was verging on burnout. I was (ok, still am) caught in some nasty credit card debt thanks to Sully's vet bills---which is frustrating because the problem *never goes away*.
In essence, things will be tight. And those new kings cages are gonna have to be x-mas presents to the flock...and I won't be taking Sully to the vet unless his Giardia gets out of control because frankly its hard to kill and he seems to be getting along just fine. Poop is a bit runny, but really...he's active and happy. When the crunch is over and I've found work and my bursary is back up to speed then he'll be going in to do the big showdown. But for now, they're both eating well and have toys----which is something I couldnt afford to do with Sully's darn bills.
The houseplants are gone now save for one, and the aquarium is going next tuesday. So its just me and the fids. If I can destress and get out of burnout then all will be well.
I think the major thing is I'm an owner that will do *anything* and spend any money necessary to keep them happy. Not being able to do it all because money is tight makes me feel like I'm neglecting them---and the money crunch is making me face some unpleasant realities especially with Sully's medical needs. But...I'm digging myself out of the hole. It may not be perfect, but I do what I can and love them both and intend to make good on the promise I made at 15---I wouldn't leave them behind no matter what--because they're my family and its my job to protect them.