Not sure where else to put this.
My 5 month old, hand reared Cockatiel has flown away. And it's all my fault.
He was on my shoulder while I was out in the back yard giving him and my Budgie some sunlight, I was foolish enough to think he'd stay with me while I was out there. I wasn't far out from my back door and everything was fine, he was sat on my shoulder nibbling my glasses. I brought my budgie back in, he was in a cage, and suddently Captain flew off my shoulder onto the roof of my next door neighbour.
It was only 6 foot tall and I rished to call him before he flew off. I held out my arm and called him, he always comes to me when I call and this was no different. He flew to my arm, but at the last minute he turned away and flew away over the roofs of my street.
I should have tried to grab him or something, even if it meant he was hurt at least he'd be with me now and not out there, he's most likely dead. And it's my fault!
I searched for him for 3 hours after he flew away, when he first flew off he was chirping and I heard which way he went. I wondered around as far as I thought he might have gone, and beyond, but with no luck.
Every now and again I thought I heard him call and I would go in that direction, but to no avail. My sister helped me for a bit, but she had to get ready for work, then my mum helped after she got off from work. Then we both went door to door in my street asking if anyone had seen anything, unfortunetly no.
I've made posters and put them in my local vet, pet shop and Morrisons. I'm just hoping someone finds him. I know most likely he is dead. And it's because of my stupidity! I miss him so much, what's worse is I've only had him for a week and I had bought a harness for him. I hate myself right now, just HATE myself. It' my fault, I shouldn't have been so trusting he'd stay with me. I ended up crying today while talking to my budgie, I haven't cried since he flew away 2 days ago.
I'm going to wait 2 weeks, if I hear nothing after that, then I have to assume he's dead. Probably eaten by a cat or attacked by other birds, or died from exposure or starvation. I wish I could find him, I feel so useless. And I just keep hating myself.
I just needed to post this somewhere. I know it's all my fault, all my fault.







