I am so, so sorry.

My heart goes out to you because I know how you feel - I lost my Senegal a few months ago and it's been awful. I am still grieving. Everyone here at the Parrot Forum has been great in helping me, likewise we are here for you if you need an outlet to express your grief. I also joined a grief forum online.
It is so hard to lose a pet, and as parrot lovers we especially understand how much it hurts. Allow yourself the time to mourn your bird and remember we are here for you if you need to talk. *Hugs*