I'm sorry to hear this, a bit late though, but I lost my Timneh African Grey, Jessie, 2 weeks ago. She was very abused and neglected for the first 7 years of her life, i had her for 12 years and thought i would have her around for the rest of my life. She had a broken leg before i got her and never had a very good grip, she has flown off occasionally, but never injured. My husband and i moved into a townhouse last year, we loved the stairs, now i hate them, i was walking down the stairs 05/08 at 7:25, she prefferred sitting on my hand, she wanted to poop and i was going to catch it with my other hand, she lost her grip, flew down the stairs into the window below by the stairs, still flapping her wings, she hit the bottom stair with her head, i got to her thinking she is just stunned, picked her up and turned to my husband, i was still in shock and then i saw blood coming out of her beak, i freaked out saying she's dying we need to get her to the vet now, i handed her to him and ran to put my congo grey, Belle, in his cage, he handed her back to me and i realized she was already dead, she must have been killed on impact, i just held her and kissed her, crying, saying my Jessie is dead the whole time, i ran outside with her my hands and just fell to the ground holding her, i couldn't let her go and i kept asking my husband if she is really dead.
I still can't believe she is gone, she was my little angel, my baby, i promised myself no one would ever hurt her again and i blame myself, if i just let her poop without trying to catch it, she might still be alive, the what if's and if only's are driving me mad. We were just on our way to go have breakfast like every other morning, i gave her a kiss when i took her out like i always did, not knowing it was the last. I don't understand why my baby had to die.
I loved her and Belle equally, i am so scared something happens to him now, he is 4 and i got him as a baby, 9 weeks old. He loved her too, used to feed her and play together, he still misses her and lost a bit of weight although he still eats. We adopted Gracie a week ago, as a friend for Belle and I also wanted 2 again. She is adorable and i love her so much already, she is really sweet, i love each grey for who they are, no one will ever replace Jessie, if you have children and one dies, you love the others, each one is unique, but no one can replace the lost child either, i dont have children, they are my children.
Sorry, I needed to get this off my chest, i am in tears. I miss her so much. She knew me so well and with one look she gave i knew exactly what she wanted.