by marie83 » Sat May 12, 2012 7:13 am
Your story made me cry, it brings back so many memories of losing mine under different circumstances, some were rescued and sick. One I assume got night fright as i found her dead with a broken neck the next day at less than one year old. My peach front had an accident and got caught up on his bell. When I found him he was hanging by his beak, he was still alive and I immediately took his weight in my hand and struggled to unclip the bell with the other hand. He had to go to the vets to get it removed as I couldn't slide it back off and I was worried I might damage his beak. The vet couldnt do it either and had to put him under. He started looking like he was making a good recovery but died shortly afterwards. For weeks and weeks afterwards I was blaming myself for putting the damn bell in his cage, for not checking it more thoroughly or more often for safety, for not finding him sooner etc.
As hard as it is to hear right now it gets easier, I now realise I did everything I could to prevent that accident apart from leaving him with no toys at all but what sort of life would he of had then? He may well still be here but he would be one unhappy bird. I always check toys when I put toys in the cage, when I take them back out again and every few days in between. I had checked that toy only the day before for splits in the chain and I'm pretty certain there wasn't any.
Realisticly what could you have done different? I dont think you could have done ANYTHING different. Clip his wings or leave him locked in a cage? What sort of life would he have had then? He was loved, he was looked after and you did what you could to keep him happy for the time you had him and that is what matters. What I'm trying to say is you have nothing to be guilty for but everything to be proud of, not every parrot owner is so caring. Please ignore other people too, they probably do understand more than they let on but it brings back hard emotions for them to deal with hence the I dont care attitude as they try to sweep it back under the carpet
I know its hard right now but give yourself time to grieve, you don't need to be thinking about loving other parrots right now but one day you will be able to love the bird just as much whilst keeping the love in your heart for Furbie.
I'm so sorry you had to go through this. Please keep talking to us if you need to and know we do understand.