I'm sorry to hear about all of this Michael. Don't put too much blame on yourself, like many animals birds can also sense your mood and if you are depressed and down over everything it might rub off on Truman as well!
We're all here for you, if you need to talk your welcome to blab away all you need or want to to me.
It is things like this that helps us ALL learn what to and what not to do in situations that you take for granted. It also reminds us all how fragile our little fids actually are.